I'm scared

Sometimes being a grown up is not all that fun. I cannot believe that I am old enough to face "grown up" trials. Over the past several weeks I have discovered a lump in one of my breasts. We thought that it was a clogged milk duct. I tried several things that were recommended by my OB, but nothing made the lump disappear. On Thursday I had to have an ultrasound. "K" was not able to take off work so my sister came with me. I am sooooooo blessed to have the husband, kids, sisters, and parents that I do! What a blessing they are in my life! My nurse called a few hours after the ultrasound and said that they don't think that it is a cancer, but that it is probably a collection of cysts. They have scheduled a needle guided ultrasound biopsy to confirm that it is not cancerous. I am trying to hold it all together, but I am really having a hard time. I cannot see the screen as I am typing. I am sooooo scared. I am trying to trust my Heavenly Father that he is aware of me and this sitution. I have found a lot of comfort through prayer, hymns and primary songs, and reading. My sisters took me and "H" out for a girl's night. I am having the hardest time getting my mind off of it. So, my house is getting very clean, my primary binder is getting well organized, and now on to some PTA things. The ultrasound is scheduled for Thursday. I need to relax!!!!!

1st grade!

I cannot believe that "A" started first grade today! The house was quiet and we all missed him, but school is something he absolutely loves! Several of the kids were crying this morning as they lined up, but not "A" he wouldn't even kiss his mother goodbye (I did sneak a kiss before we left the house!) He seems to have a super teacher and several of his friends are in his class. He is my sweetheart--I cannot believe that he is growing!
In a few minutes we are off to celebrate the 1st day of school with the Aunties (Nana and Papa are in Iowa for the week). When we get home its shower, reading, then bed. I love being on a schedule--everyone is so much happier that way!

the drama continues!!!!

There is never a dull moment around here! Poor baby "H" has pink eye! The fun never ends! On the flip side--I had to chuckle when they weighed her. She was 12.3 lbs. Gotta love cute chubby babies! She is adorable!

who has he been kissing???

My little 'M" has mono! What in the world? I took him in last week because his throat hurt. I had also noticed that his glands were HUGE! They checked him for strep (that was negative) and agreed that his glands were very swollen--but that was it. A few days ago his nose started running and he was coughing a ton. I started him on breathing treatments but they didn't really seem to help. So last night we took him to the kids care. He had 3 breathing treatments but still wasn't doing great. The doctor mentioned that he might have mono and that we could get him tested if we wanted. I hated to put him through the pain of a test, but I wanted the peace of mind. He was a champ! No crying, just a little grunt! Mind you, this is the same kid who didn't cry when he broke his collar bone. He is one tough cookie! Actually, that is what he wanted--a cookie. We told him that after the test he could have a package of cookies from the vending machine. He was happy as a clam. They called tonight and said that the test came back positive. Oh what fun! It is going to be tricky though--no contact sports for 6 weeks--he cannot take a blow to his splene (sp??). He is our rough and tumble crazy one. This is going to be interesting!

my baby "M" is 4 today!!!!

I cannot believe that my little boy turned 4 today!!!!!! I cannot believe how fast the time has gone, yet how it seems like we have had him forever!!! We had a really fun party last night with my family and a couple of his friends at Chuck E. Cheese. Everyone had a great time!!!!! Thank you Aunties!!!!!! Our pediatrician once said that "M" is the happiest kid that he had ever seen. Rarely do you see him without a smile on his face. I love my boy sooo much! I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father would entrust us with such a special boy. Today "K" has a retreat so I think that I will take the kids to a playland for lunch. Tonight Nana and Papa and our friends the Websters are coming over for cake (Auntie "K" made the most fabulous Dora, Diego, and Cars cake!!!!). Tomorrow we will have a little party after church with my in-laws. Three days of partying!!!!!! Happy 4th Toshi!!!!!!!!!!! We love you!!!!!!!

i am in laundry heaven!!!!!!!

a few nights ago i was doing yet again another load of laundry. i cannot believe how many i do a day!!! i put the load in right before we sat down for dinner. a couple hours later i heard the washer going--i thought that maybe in my sleep deprived state i didn't remember maybe putting in another load or exactly when i put in the other. later that night i heard it again. i asked "k" if he had put in a load. he said that he hadn't. so i checked it out. the same load had been washing for over 5 hours. not a good thing for the clothes!!!!!!!!!! it turns out that it was going through all of the cycles continuously. so--now we have a brand new washer and dryer!!!! i wasn't thrilled about spending the money but we have been living on borrowed time with these old ones--they belonged to my parents before they moved to Utah. i cannot believe how much fun i am having with these new machines! they are both front loading and energy efficient. i think that i am actually going to get rid of my mountain of laundry!!!!

I feel so loved!

We have the best family and friends! I feel so blessed and so loved! We had a great past few days. On Thursday our stake had Lagoon Day. We went with some of our best friends, the Websters, and had the greatest time! I felt like a kid again! Our boys had the greatest time--and we had the greatest time hanging out with them!!!!! We left baby "H" home with my sisters--she was in heaven being held and loved by her Aunties. On Friday our friends threw a surprise baby shower for "H" and I. I was sooo surprised! Normally I am pretty hard to surprise, but with this one I had no clue! We had a fabulous time. I felt so loved and special. Yesterday was a very special day. Our baby "H" was blessed at Church. "K" gave her a beautiful blessing. She really is a special little girl. We feel so blessed to have her join our family! I am so grateful for my husband, Dad, and our wonderful friends who were able to take part in this special blessing! My sisters, Mom, and Dad helped us throw a wonderful open house. We had about 40 people come--we laughed, visited, and ate for hours. My Mom gave "H" her dress--it is gorgeous and I hope that maybe one day her daughter will wear it!
I feel so blessed and grateful for the gospel, my family, and our wonderful friends! We love you all!!!!!